Screw it I don't care about keeping track of these things

I've been away for a while, haven't had much to write. Not very good at commitment as you can see : /

It's not that I don't want to do this anymore, I really do, I just don't have anything to write about. My life is boring, nobody wants to hear what I have to say. I'll still post things here when I need to type. Or just need to vent. Or something. IDK.

Currently listening to Monstercat Uncaged livestream. It's a song I've never heard before. Well I have, just did not know the artist name or song name until now. Or properly listened to it. Overcome by Hot Date and Chrisson. I never understood DJ names. They rarely make sense and are like gibberish or random words or words that sound like names. Then you have the edgy ones that are all DJ M1K34L D34TH or something weird.

I'm going to finally start RWBY tonight. People have been yelling at me to watch it for the longest time and I haven't because I thought it looked like a mainstream overhyped show. Not big on mainstream stuff. Anyways, yeah. My weeb side has been showing up a bit lately. Haven't watched anime in over a year.

Yeah, like I said. Nothing to type. It's just boring. My life is boring. Correction: I don't have a life.

I'm sorry : / Thanks for reading.

Have a nice day

No journal today. Sorry :P

Journal: Day 2

My second entry... today has been boring as hell. After yesterday, I felt sort of a rush after I posted my first entry of this series I'm doing. And I was so excited to get back on the Laptop and start typing. But... I guess I was so excited and impatient I sorta let it ruin my day. I was waiting all day for something to happen I could write about here... but nothing. You can't rush these things. Expecting a pretty short entry :\

My tooth pain from the upper wire has basically only worsened. Eating has been a real struggle for me, and I can't barely talk without accidentally bumping my top and bottom teeth together causing immense sudden pain. I hate it -_-

I've been trying to pass the time by browsing the internet on my laptop. Lots of good that does when your internet is so slow that YouTube videos buffer at 144p. It sucks.

I really have nothing to talk about today. That's a real bummer... I was so excited to get back into this. I guess this journal counts as content? I just want to produce something, make something that people can enjoy. That's all I want to do. Whether it be art, music, gaming, animation, or even writing. Like this journal. hmm...

Y'know... Journal doesn't entirely sound right for this 'thing' I've started. Blog? Too mainstream. Diary? Hell no! I guess 'Journal' works good enough. Not entirely sure how I want to keep track of the entries. Like, do I title them by days or entry numbers. Maybe I'm overthinking things, I should just let it come naturally. I know very well from personal experience forcing something almost always ruins it. Mostly from Art class, the deadlines on the projects were ridiculous!

OOH A TOPIC!!

Mr. Hutchins: Worlds Worst Art Teacher

So last year in Middle School I had the same Art Teacher for the entire 3 years there. Mr. Hutchins. Imagine a much skinnier tanner Dr. Phil with a 5 O' clock shave instead of his gorgeous stache, and with the entirely wrong personality. He had this big lie about how he teached that he shoved down our ears every chance he could. He always said that he "Grades on Effort, not Talent". LIES. 

He was also the Cross Country Coach (Which I participated in for all 3 years. I'm not a total couch potato). Life tip: Art Teachers should never be Coaches, and vice versa. Sure, that seems appealing, a good combo, but trust me. It's not. It just ends up with a bald guy shouting at you for not putting in enough effort when you tried really hard to make something good but just failed because he doesn't ever teach you how to actually draw and stuff.

The projects were also stupid. "Find 5 things that mean something to you and make them into art". It was difficult, mostly because not many things really 'mean' anything to me. I'm not good with symbolism. So I ended up using a Pepsi can, a gaming controller, one of my Godzlla figures, the Dilophosaurus from Jurassic Park, and a music visualizer I had on my phone. Those things don't really mix well, and it turned out to be utter garbage. I couldn't just take 5 unrelated things and just 'POOF' Art.

He also got pissed at you for dumb reasons. I got sent to the hall for fiddling with an Eraser while trying to pay attention to his boring monotonous excuse for a voice. Aren't teachers supposed to encourage twiddling your fingers and stuff to help you pay attention and sit still? The rest of mine did. All except him. He also would yell at you if he thought you weren't paying attention, and you had absolutely no way of proving you were. He was the Teacher after all, which meant he was ALWAYS right no matter what.

He had this like trademark punishment that us students laughed at behind his back. Lunch Detentions. Not put in enough effort? LUNCH DETENTION! Not talk clear enough? LUNCH DETENTION! Don't eat all of your disgusting School bought lunch? LUNCH DETENTION! He got so bad with just handing out LD's (We started calling them LD's) that the Principal even got mad at him and e got in trouble XD

Man, that was fun to type lol. I think that's enough for today. I feel much better now. I'm starting to really like doing this. This is so enjoyable, and it's only the second day! Gotta be patient though... can't let tomorrow get ruined by impatience as well. Thanks for reading. Have a nice day :D

Okay well since I have nothing else to post I think I might use this site as like a journal or something... I've been told those are great ways to organize your thoughts and stuff. Help keep you sane. I dunno lol

First Entry

Well today I got the top wire for my braces put in. It was alright for the first hour, but it's now slowly going into the "Unbearable Pain" phase. You know, the one that makes you have to decide whether or not to just cut the wire out even though your family spent hundreds of dollars they don't have to make sure you have perfect teeth? Yeah, that's the one.

This is the second time I'll be going through this era of suffering. I had the bottom wire put in a month before the top one because I had to have my upper palate expanded. People used to think I resembled a Vampire, mostly because of my pale skin and dark hair, but now with these expanded cheekbones I must really look like one xD.

I'm rambling... what was the point of this again?  Oh yeah, journal. So I don't go mentally insane over the summer. I mean I could go hang out with my friend... but I went to his house almost every weekend when School was still in. Kinda need a break after a schools worth of weekends at his house. I like being by myself from time to time.

People call me antisocial, Emo, retarded, whatever, because I don't interact or talk to almost anyone. It's not my fault everyone has hated me since Kindergarten and didn't want me to talk to them. I honestly don't understand why they hate me though. It's definitely not the fact that I'm super weird and awkward, or that I intentionally wear my hair over my eyes so I can avoid making eye contact with people, or that I wear the same Monstercat zip up jacket everyday. Or that I regularly listen to electronic music that makes most peoples ears bleed. Wait a minute... I'm starting to see a pattern here -_-

I'm gonna go play some DOOM 2016... I've already beat the game twice but now I'm trying to beat it a third time on Nightmare mode. I'm having some difficulty on level 2. If only I had my maxed out Super Shotgun, then I'd be destroying those hellspawn.

Wow... I wrote allot... I know I'm a good writer but I almost never write. I used to write Fanfiction a few years back (so much regret T_T) but those stories were nowhere near as good as when I just sit down and write. I forced allot of them. I thought that if I wrote Fanfcition people would like me (no idea why) and I forced myself to write awful stories. But when I just sit down and type whatever is on my mind it's sooooooo much better than any of those awful stories xD.

Thanks for reading I guess lol. I'll be writing more if you want to read... maybe I'll try a schedule or something... I dunno... probably not. I can't force myself. Definitely like once every 2 or 3 days though, maybe tomorrow if I'm feeling it, so if you really are that interested in reading what I have to say, check back then lol. 

Have a nice day :D

I just reread my previous post from last night and Jesus do I get depressing when it's 3 am. Sorry If I bummed anyone out that was not my intention at all lol I just started typing and couldnt stop. 

I'm much better now. Have a most wonderful day :D

Hello. Im not happy.

If you're reading this, thanks for acknowledging my existence. It really means something. I'm struggling. My Laptop is awful and cannot run anything I want it to run. I want to become a content creator of any form, but I cannot decide which field will be best for me, and that I want to do most. Animation, Art, Game developing, Game playing, or Music. 

I've thought of just doing all of the above, but that would be near impossible. I don't have the time, skill, or resources to do all of them. I'm mostly here to complain, but if you'd like to help thats great. All I want most for now is an upvote or comment or whatever so that I know that there are people out there willing to hear what I have to say (Or read what I have to type I guess).

I have some awful MS Paint art you can check out (well... only 1 right now but I might try and make more). Please don't hate... hate is the opposite of what I need.

If I come off as desperate or whiny or pitiful or whatever I'm sorry. I'm just typing what's on my mind. It's actually kinda theuraputic you should try it too :P

That's all... bye and thanks for reading.